Its ten fourty five.

And i'm exhausted oh boy oh boy.shall not post much so actually just so u guys know,this post was wayyy longer until somehow 'magically' blogger cut my post by more than 3/4 thanks loads! -.- roarrr~anyways i gtg sleep yooo shall post tomorrow.I'm thinking of something interesting to post about anyways.
--and so i once said


'The best pictures are captured in your mind'
imy~ 

ahha incase none of ya'll notice my html was slightly broken? haha thanks to my wonderous,special funny ah mei she did it again! haha helping me fix my blog :PP wooots 
thanks ANGEL WU AH MEI! :DD
Currently listening to by the way by the red hot chilli peppers u guys should go listen :D very melodramatic song as said by dave the teddy bear...
currently struggling cause the ingenious Nicholas thought he could have done every homework last minute and yet im still here doing it..
Decided to do a shoutout to those special people in my life:
-Dave teddy MATEY! back at australia
-ALicia pang bear bear CHEER UP :D
-Angel wu ah mei last long long with J!<3 hahas
-daniel lols i miss the sec 1 times.been wanting to say this but thought it'll sound pretty gay but who gives a shit anyways eh? XD
-Kai jie  brother  he doesn't know it but he always makes me laugh somehow
-Vanessa girl girl :D miss her loads loads too and her bellownes :D
-Roy! my dance partner as well as an Awesome PINOY friend? :D
-Michelle and Dulcie these 2 must be together! all hail the mouse and coww.CAtch up some times yea?
-MUMMY! :D haha as the previous previous post i posted our pic! haha thanks to her im still here saint? haha XD
-Sister? haha also named angel O.o in a creepy way haha for her non-stop nonsensical laughters
-Zhong ping miss pingy pong pong! been ages since we caught up
-Nadzirah mother for her support for ma dance and non stop nonsense toos XD
-He an! for aattempting to help me in A math today! ahhas
-AMANDA meh  meh~ hoho i wouldn't forget u! :P when i was down u were there to let me rant by? :D thanks loads loads BFF! :D( im not gay haha)
-cheryl WONG ah bi! lols cheer up tooos >< the world is a better place when u smile :DD
-Lastly claudia dearie :PP <3

OK now that im done being happy about those that were there for me i shall continue my battle with the books.TEXT books ....
-nick
A blue bird once told me:
"True faith has nothing to do with beseeching someone else for help.Each of us creates our own happiness"

THis morning i woke up and realise even in my dreams those piles of homework were still giving me the same ol pressure.SO here i am now waking up,choosing not to go out and decided to face the consequences -.- .Lets see its 11.35am 
by 6pm i'm suppose to have everything done...we'll see 

Hello world here  i am updating again? So its a saturday night and i have been at home the whole day yea? Been doing alot of reflection and stuff on things.God i have been at home the whole day and realise how meaningless sometime i lead my life.Started as a simple guy with simple ambitions and eventually getting my pride in the way? haha, its funny if u think about it.Life changes really fast and how quickly that few seconds could either save one life or crush someones biggest ambitions? 

A blue bird once flew past and said: " Don't be a Jack of all traits Nicholas,
                                                                   Just a master of one?" 
That day it really took a hold of me and i was like Gosh O.o is this what i really wanted?Or something i thought people will see me as?  oh welll i wish i could just type my brain out right now but i have piles and moutains of homework waiting for me.I have gotta do it or mdm nora is soo gonna kill me as well as the other teachers(neither would i want to dissapoint any of them do i?) After all this IS my repeated year...and Hell i should be doing better than the rest of the class? 
Push it harder Nicholas


Nick what do u want in life? NO one to prove wrong but myself to Control.Prove it to myself  yea? Show that those that have been by my side has not been wasting their efforts yea? 

Hello RED dot!
okkk guys im finally back and gosh there have been events going on!!
(gonna just take a mini break from reality and starta posting!) 

Oookk...here are the stuff tat have been happening:
-Sec 1 camp
-Regin's birthday
-Meet ups with my ol'long lost primary school matesss!

First thing first,hehe sec 1 camp.
Hopefully i wont be ending up just posting this event cause goshhh its long and im not even sure whether i can recollect everything here.
first day as usual it'll start off boring with all the speeches and regulations(BUT HEY,without those the sec 1 camp will probably end up in a killing spree or something)
This year batch is okkkkk~ i guess :D but my class was awesome! gooo guys :D ,Well they'r not exactly perfect and stuff but stillll they'r awesome...-.- haha am i even making sense..?
SOOOO first it was bag check and GOSH! i found like a whole picnic basket of some sort???All sort of stuff was found in this year sec1's !Even a 1.5litre Coke...i mean GUYS? lols its sec 1 camp,not a holiday leisure camp ? hahah anyways back to the camp,after that was check in,CLeaned up the classroom layed down the rules and off to ice breakers! (weeee) lols love ice breakers...Getting to know the people u  dunno well better and stuff,Looking at the sec 1 camps bond really brings up memories dun they?(*sigh i miss my classs! xD ) OK moment OVER! nexxt! Team building ahha hilarious stuff happen,SHan't elaborate or it'll end up one HELL of a boring speech :D 
OH BUT! one thing must highlight,WE went through BUTTER HILL haha Gosh it was fun!Reliving my sec 1 life? Gawd i miss my class :(   .  ANyyyways second day went through more team building games and the ohhh sooo frigging torturous SIlent meal....lols i admit i did talk a lil too >< haha.THird day was rather sad atmosphere was tense but we instructors had to make the best of it :D and im glad or rather hope that i made a impact on the sec 1's life yea? haha GO 1/1!!
Now Regin's birthday.
lols it was hilarous went wit claudearrrr!~ hahas :DD was all fun went between two places.Vivo and Jurong point.Haha lazy to post too much abt what we did but One phrase explains it all  "Tiramisu smells like rotten egg" 
Thank you :D ahha 

LASTLY! I MET Up with 2 of my logn lost primary school friends :D One in which i never got to know.
-Kathleen(*meowww)
-Roxanne(*wofff joey!)
haha it was all fun :D 

Well life goes on as i expect more and more from it.
or at least,i wish i had more expectations from myself as i failed again and again and again.
Theres something wrong wit me..too many barriers to break.Too many misunderstandings to clear,too many contradictions i wish i could sort out.


*failing over and over again aint fun trust me.I just wished i had someone to talk to about it.I turn left and right as i head through the valley of waves.The serenity was too much,and so was the loud hailing through the echoing hall.what do i want?


As i spelled my name out again,i asked